you came into my life when i needed saving

you were my wings my reason i trusted you

you were the one

the one for me

me and you for ever

you brought forth the best in me

you tought me so much 'bout life

i ended up saving you

again i'm alone in this desert

wondering alone thru time

this barren land called life

but you saved me

you changed me

you awoke me

you showed me the way

i see this now

all i wanted to be was to be saved

to be content for once

i thank you from the bottom of my heart

for showing me the way for saving me

I see the division of paths

which decides about your divine ordinance

feeling a certain coldness

of a secret power that entangles the spirit

in memory of people

without them you would not exist

and memory of people

who would not exist without you

looking for the meaning of life

while breathing day in and out

realize how slight it is

keeping an eye on the sky at night

what would you give to live your life again

what would you change with a second chance

and could you learn from your mistakes

i don't know

i remember your voice and dreams

your smile when you laughed

your pain when you cried

i follow your footsteps let them be my guide

can you save me from myself

it's hard to be strong when you're not here

i remember when we used to be

we faced all our fears

chased the clouds blocking the sun

and thru my confusion i heard your voice

the promise you stated

i never saw you leaving

you never spoke so i heard it

cause i would never let you go

did i force you to make that decision

did i make you leave

in remembrance of all the days we planned

all the things we sed we'd do

of all the times we had

the fate i shared with you

you'll always be my truth

what i know you taught me

all the things you used to do

all the faith i had in us

in remembrance

I don't belong here
This is not my life

This house I walk in was our home
These children once called me dad

I'm now the stranger who wonder these halls
I'm the forsaken standing before deadman's door

Staring in on your new life without me
Cold fear grips me as I watch you sleep

The bed we shared now empty
The live we planned forgotten

The ring I gave you lost

No one to answer my prayers
No one to hear my screams

I don't belong here
This is no longer my live

Just the pain of a broken man remains
Absolution for the forsaken

so this is it

does time end here

is this what i fought for

what a fool i've been

to think life had more to offer

instead i lye here

in remorse and pain

i hate you for doing this

i hate you for saying that

i never did enough to ever please you

never did enough for you to believe in me

and i'm still thinking i'm not enough

my war for you

i'm still fighting

even thu every day i loose a battle

i know i lie to myself

i see the signs

always the same three bloody words

i am fine

i hate you for doing this

i hate you for saying that

i never did enough to ever please you

never did enough to make you mine

and i'm still thinking i'm not enough

ashamed of the life i've lived

ashamed of what i've become

i just became

you asked me what i want my answer was everything

i didn't want to be happy i wanted to be with you

i didn't want to be with you i wanted to be yours

thru the light and the dark the good and the bad

i wanted to be the one you relied on

your strength in times of weakness

your reason for being as you were mine

i wanted your love as mine was yours

as this day draws to an end light turns to dark

i find myself standing here alone

what was no more what would've been no longer

shattered dreams like broken glass surround me

no more reason no more light

the roads we traveled time spend under starry skies

thru rain we ran nights you spend in my arms

no more reason no more hope

the journey should end in lover's embrace

nights spend in each other's arms

as this day draws to an end

this journey ends

i alone

you build it up tear it down

no reason to follow you

you left the song without a sound

you left the story I made for us

softly angels bow and cry in the silence of the night

no answer for the asking

no mercy for the aching

i see no light on the forsaken

let's spend the night when this dream ends

sometimes you laughed

sometimes you cried

yes, i've cried over you

you've left me blind in paradise

you've left me hungering for the touch of you

snow white angels run and hide in the blackness of the night

never is a long time

goodbye

Darkness surrounds me again

Howling wind blows thru the night

Cold rain stings my face

This place all too familiar

My old friend, it's been too long

your grieve fills me with hope

My screams echo thru the night

no one to answer

My longing for this life

no one to comfort me

My old friend, it's been too long

only you can answer my prayers

Once again I taste your cold steel

ABSOLUTION

hear that all too familiar click

CONTENT

ready for my final request

My old friend, it's been too long

maybe this time you will take it all away

All I want

is to be OK again

Not super

Not amazing

Just OK

To wake in the morning

no yearning to end it all

To go out

and not see you everywhere

All I want

is to be OK again

To have one night's quiet sleep

not thinking of you without end

To walk into my home

and not remember that it was ours

All I want

Is to be OK again

Not alone

Not in this pain

Just OK

All I want

Is to end it all

we were different

you were day

I was night

we were perfect

you the glove

that fit my hand

I the scarf

that kept you warm

no more

again I'm left outside

cold wind blowing thru me

my hands freezing

no more

it's dark now

stinging rain

hides my tears

no more

in the black mud

a shiny reminder

the ring I gave you

no more